Last week I packed my bags and jetted off to Hawaii for a wedding! It was my first time on any of the Hawaiian Islands, and I went a few days early to explore Oahu solo before joining up with the group. After the hustle and bustle of NYFW (more posts are still coming), it was such a treat to relax and embrace the slower pace of island life. The only thing I couldn’t get used to was the incredibly low speed limits, haha!
This swimsuit is absolutely my favorite. Small-busted girls, it’s time to rejoice: it comes in XXS! While the bikini top didn’t have any padding, it was very flattering and fit my 32A bust without any gapping. :)
I feel like I need to be completely honest here… while I did my best to play it cool, it took a lot for me to be okay wearing a bikini on this trip, let alone take these photos for you all to see. I actually rushed through the photo-taking process because I was so self-conscious about shooting this look with my group of friends right around the corner.
If you breeze through my past outfit posts, you’ll notice that I consistently pick silhouettes that flatter my petite frame, but also never “showcase” anything, either. Aside from the body-con skirt I wore in my previous post (which I covered up with a loose-fitting top), I have always shied away from anything form-fitting because I’ve never been comfortable with my body.
Being a late bloomer in practically every sense, I watched girls in high school and college develop into beautiful women with curves and legs for days, while I, sadly, remained the same. Even though those years are long gone and I did eventually “bloom,” the insecurities still linger. I look in the mirror and I still see who I was and what I looked like 10 years ago, rather than the woman I am today.
This hasn’t been easy to admit in writing, but I hope this is a step in the right direction to start seeing myself more clearly. If any of you dear readers are comfortable and willing to share, what insecurities did you have/how did you overcome them, or what are you still working to overcome?
Photographer: Tsz Chan